You may have noticed that i am using a little 'i' when i refer to myself. This is at the request of my Master - it shows who is in command.
i personally have had (and sometimes still have) many issues with the use of the little 'i' and not just because i am a writer. i have felt that it makes my role* as a submissive more insignificant than my Master's role as dominant. Therefore making me feel insignificant in the relationship. i know that i am not insignificant and that my Master doesn't see me as such, but that is how i've felt when made to reduce myself to little letters.
i still have these feeling sometimes but they are occurring less often. The reason i have continued using the little 'i' is because my Master has asked it of me. The one thing i want to do in this world is to please Him. And if He feels that showing my respect towards Him through the use of the little 'i' is important then i will try and follow that protocol.
However, i have never had issues capitalising pronouns that relate to Master Settiano. In my mind it distinguishes Him from everybody else - not to imply that He is better than everyone else (He is only human) but to imply that He is the centre of my world.
* i do not see my submission as a game or something i act out - it is in every aspect of O/our relationship and part of who i am. The reason i use the word 'role' here is because it is not all that i am.
2 months ago